錦鋰敢理

May the fifth 2018

羅馬到翡冷翠 5/05/2018

火車上有感：

錦鋰敢理

這牆紙的錦鋰不是我繪的

回到羅馬 Castelnuovo 的家後，我決心將浴室的牆裝上從香港買來的牆紙。

那位意籍裝修大師的離奇（一個似來無踪只每星期六、日才可發展其長的人）實令人費解；很有可能使我的家所作著一個「永遠不停等待」的角色。

每次跟他的約定差不多因突然而來的更改而告吹。

所以，為了心靈的真正平靜，買了貼牆紙的膠後便開始作試驗式的嚐試 —

將那可悪的空間變成如金魚戲水的喜悅。

一條條的錦鋰在上游，在上面游下來、又曲又變彎的有點像東方加西方水彩的感覺。

那個洗臉盆，上面也貼著一兩只游著的錦鯉圖，以來作放置小花盆盛器的空間。剛從翡冷翠帶回來的迷你小花盆子，不是瓷器造的，故破不了；故便將之來盛 㓗齒用具。

再看看那近乎「可怖」的地板，便決定將餘下不多的牆纸也作為地上其中一部份的裝置。

承著洗臉盆那空間地下，由左至右的伸展至粉紅色梵高椅子，變成了有一點兒 Hokusai 版畫味道的喜悅空間。梵高椅子多年前曾放在室外，受著風吹雨打，腳尖處已經沒有了完整的木；那崩著的腳兒，變得與新的魚兒地上圖有點兒冲撃；便決定放上一心型地毯，使整體裝置感到有著梵高夢那種既破又成的希望感。暫時將這小小空間新了一番滋味，以來作未由那大師再裝修時的一種過渡式喜悅：或可當此空間可以給予人那種雖有困境卻可迎刃而解的感受。

又或者是一種戲劇性的臨時感？

至少，那貼了一部份魚兒的臉盆已不太過像往日般的沒氣息；至少有一種給人乾淨俐落的感受。

或者有點英國牆紙習慣的懷舊，又或者有點非中又西的 chinoiserie 感。

由那個差不多見不得人的浴室空間變成可以夢想的舊時夢空間可以算是有一點點成績吧。

至少，在浴室尋找靈感的空間意念也開始慢慢地誕生。這個極私人的空間本來應是令人最能有創意的時空地點。

只可惜，不少人只當之為必需的實際空間，沒有一點幻想性，沒有一點夢想性，沒有一點憶想性。

以前那空間只是一個可憐的既舊又不太 㓗淨又像不能翻新的環境。

現在哩，也算不錯吧。但卻有待再花心思翻新一下那地板，使那舊的 Acrylic 筆觸彩不再有點 matte 感；因為那不光鮮感覺像是「抓緊」著不少多日儲藏的 䴤埃，看上去很是有點兒頽喪。

究竟在那裝修大師的未再𦲷臨時能否成功地翻新地材，實不得而知。

本來要將這等功夫放在大師安裝好新的臉盆與水龍頭之後，但看來我因

1 ）不想再煩著自己的周六或日的空間

2 ）不想再次花神等待這很可能不能依約的太忙大師

便決定先翻新了可翻新的地方，來看看翻新過了後會否將原先的計劃更改。

畢竟，這個思考歷程雖是相反式，但活在意大利卻往往用得著，以來湲冲自己的無可奈可感覺。

這幾天天氣又是潮溼，又有點兒冷；作這個室內翻新令人精神也有點兒振作；像是與外面的悪劣天氣無關。

自從在十多天前重新 mosaic 那四張鐵檯子後，心情輕鬆得多。

可以再翻新「昔日」的「不是」，可再從翻新後「重生」這種創作過程的人生啓發令我的以往有點兒「過去了便過去了，不要介懷那種妥協感」。

藝術之所以與心靈更密密切切相息相關其實是真的一回事；與「成名」或「捧作」（由其是從別人眼光看）無關。

這種創作思維，是抹痕的一種日記，是自白的一種方式，是表達的神奇力量：因為表達了，像是心釋懷了。創作了，像是作了人類生存在世的其中一種使命；為人類表達能量加點油、加點功夫以來與當代的同時曾經歷盡滄水的同人作心靈溝通，又或者，是作一種有感昔日大師（無論是詩人、畫家、文人）的至心心靈啓發一種延續性的尊敬，既崇拜

：啊，果真如此

又深深的感受

：啊，我哩，只能如此説如此説。

祝各位安康，在渡不過難關的日子裏，也可從中再渡翻新的喜悅。

李錦芙

寫於 .Italo 火車上

A diary noted upon the train.italo during my journey from Castelnuovo di Porto where I reside to the city of Florence where I often spend some days to dream about certain close to impossible dreams

This article briefly talks about the surprise I encountered during the process of giving fresh life to a (much needed work)  corner of my bathroom, where the old painted acrylic floor ( done years ago by myself in order to make it look less industrial, but more artistic) is no longer hygienic and where the sink and the grout do need to either replaced or redone, if that would be possible.

A roll of good quality wall paper with Chinese painted Carp which I bought in Hong Kong has been sitting in a corner came out to be a possible remedy , if only temporary, for a corner that is worth the transformation, especially after I have put in a 19th century style  bath tub.

The Chinese Carp design on the wall paper looks almost Japanese when placed behind the Van Gogh chair painted by me years ago.

It could remind one of a Hokusai or a Hiroshige’s prints.

But what was most satisfying of this process of a refreshed corner is the fact that one has managed to revive or revoke broken dream- once broken, yet reborn, just like that Van Gogh Chair that has gone through turmoil, but is now happily , quietly sitting upon a heart shaped carpet, with underneath the pattern of the oriental Carp which must have given much delight to those Impressionists or expressionists artists of the Van Gogh period.

Up above the wallpaper of Carp not painted by me ( the only wall  in the whole house without my painted figures) there are some small cats I painted when I bought the house thirteen years ago.

I decided to let those tiny cats watching over the Oriental Carps, thinking that they might make quite a happy statement in the room.

I believe the bathroom being a very sacred place, where one is invited to dream, to feel private, to go beyond the imposed limits ...

A place where one could even dare to compromise with the almost uncompromised past or reality 

A meditative corner , a place where no one is going to invade, 

So I wrote and got delighted about this surprised makeover , unexpectedly since the expert who was supposed to renovate my bathroom failed to continue with the project halfway, due to unforeseen circumstances.

But life in Italy is full of surprises, and therefore, one is very much invited to think opposite, to plan less, to follow the flow, 

And this, perhaps is exactly this , an artistic creative process is born,

An unexpected mosaic table makeover, a kind of painted Monet and Cezanne wall to pay homage to the artists, and now

a Van Gogh corner with Oriental wallpaper

Good that the expert of renovation did not quite make it on time,

otherwise  I would have missed all these exciting creative working process, which I am very thankful about.

Thank you and I wish you all good luck even though sometimes things do not work out as expected— it is the unexpected circumstances that teach one how to get over the problem, and how to work the unworkable, how to mend the seemingly unmendable. 

In other words, to dream the impossible dream as all dreams are finally possible, if one dares to dream the impossible.

Bernadette 

5/05/2018

Bernadette whose Chinese name is 李錦芙，is a practising artist whose works can also be viewed under:

bernadettekamfulee.it

Bernadette.simpl.com

Facebook: Bernadette Kam-fu Lee ( Pisapia )

Signed paintings as Bernadette Lee

Bernadette Kam Fu Lee

Also known as Lee-Pisapia, Kam Fu Bernadette 

As journalist with pen names: 

Kam Fu Pisapia

Bernadette K.Pisapia

李錦芙